Can you help me with my life at this point. I am sooo lost. I have been a nurse for 10 yrs and addiction came into my life. Now that it is under control ,I have restrictions to my license and find myself looking for a way to start over. I read my own tarot cards and they stand true to form but, don't know where their coming from now. New jobs , new way of life , marching to the beat of a new drummer. What do I do. Ihave gotten so depressed that I sometimes feel my life is finished here. I have raised 2 upstanding productive sons, and as a grandma have made an impession that is unforgetable. Saying this,if my life ended today,everyone would turn out just fine . I've done my job and just because I'm still living doesn't necessarly mean I still have a purpose. I just turned 48 and although I am still fairly young doesn't mean I still need to live!!! I am a true cancer and having protected and loved my family as such, the loyalty and giving of myself is always there. Now, I have sat and thought about this as rationaly as I can and honestly I do not feel bad saying that I have done what I was meant to do in my life. As matter of factly. So, do I struggle to get through this or do I struggle to change professions and start over again. Frankly the struggle is more than I can think of.I guess I can go on and on but I will stop here. Any "feel beter" words out there for me. I also left out that I have a wonderful girlfriend of 16 yrs who is my true soulmate. She is also a nurse and still continues to help people everyday, so she continues to have a purpose in this life. I'm sure she would also be fine if I were not here. Her family is very supportive.  thanks for reading or listening, teresa

Teresa.  HEY GIRL -> UR not really so LOST as U R "blind"...I understand why U have gloomy & cloudy energy around U and it's MOSTLY due 2 the "middle age" FOG surrounding U right now.  It's REAL and needs 2 B addressed, FELT and B 4 U can get 2  that "sunny" coast U want 2 rest UR weary mind on.   Yes?? 

I felt PULLED by UR note and offer a reading, should U want it.  I don't do Tarot, my sights R clarified by regular playing cards, using a "Cartomancy" spread. (Old school stuff!) 2 help U avoid the BIG wave B responsive, not DROWN in it?   It's ALL about choice and being a Nurse, U have the intellect U need 2 get the clarity & purpose in life.  UR girlfriend KNOWS the purpose U serve in HER life....THAT counts 2.  

If U have a Yahoo address, reply with it here and will locate U on Yahoo Messenger, invite U as a friend then I will read U on FRIDAY, should U decide 2 take my offer.   I know EXACTLY where U R in life...I'm 51 -> been there DONE that...or "Read" about it....LOL     

Blessings....Spirit

Hello Spirit, Its me Groovey I like what you wrote to Teresa you always have been a person willing to help out anyway you can.You are a nice and kind giving soul.I feel good knowing i had the pleasure of meeting and getting to know you.All the times i had a chance to chat with you i always looked forward to the next time i would have that chance i know i havent had the chance lately to chat with you but as i can see you are still the same Spirit i met awhile ago. Blessing to you my friend.Thank you for being who you are. Groovey.

Hello Spirit.

Thanks for replying so quickly. I am really losing ground. Nothing seems to change. I hate to think that I couldn't handle a life fact because I am a fairly level-headed person. Yes, I would a chance to understand this FUNK.lol. If yo think you can shed some light for me,I am willing to listen or talk. My addy is teresalee41@yahoo.com. Will be looking for you tomorrow. Thanx.....teresa

Hello Spirit.

You wrote and didn't answer. I was waiting for Fri but no word. I guess thats the desparate in me. Would love to here from you.thanx, teresa.

teresa,

 everyone makes mistakes. and yes there are times in life when no matter what - everything seems dark and lost. but that is the time to awaken. not get lost in that feeling. self pity wont do u any good.

 and no if you commit suicide you will affect all the people around you for the rest of their lives. yes they willl continue physically, but they will be scared emotionally forever. i have experienced this myself. suicide breaks families. creates pain the other person always goes thru till the day they die.

if you think you need professional help, medical help seek it. if u r talking about suicide that is pretty serious. you get a skewed view of life and someone else can help you sort it.

 have faith in yourself. look at how far you have come. you didnt have to. you could have continued the way you were going before. but u didnt. why stop now and jump off when you can go so much further. this is a new you revolving. find out who the new you is.

good luck.